YAY. So I've been just giving you boring old blog posts lately--but just this week I updated a LOT.
As you can see, from my LAST poll, I had several things I needed to do, and a lot of them were voted on the most. A lot, I believe was on my black template. It was cool for the time being, but it was only cool for 6 months apparently, so I updated my layout/template. And most of you know I did that a while ago, but some of you guys haven't been on my blog in a while (and that's totally cool, but yeah).
ALSO, I showed some pics of myself, but that's not really an update--I HAVE changed my "About Me". It's way different from my soft/quiet/shy about me to totally different. :P lol
I made myself an AFFILATE!! Woo-hoo! My affie is the icon of me, my name (bookworm4god), and the last sentence f my about me (Come at your own risk). And if you don't understand why I put that last sentence its because of the tons of people who are afraid of talking about or to Christian people/Christianity. So yeah, come at your own risk, for this girl has some opinions. :D (The affie is right there on the side. Just scroll down a little and you'll see.)
I added an icon for my blogoversary!!! :D lOl, in (*runs to check the icon*) ninety-eight more days, it will be officially a year sicne I've been posting on my blog. WHOOPEE! :)
I've added other icons. Most of them have to do with me, my blog, and whatever. So yeah. I also have links to my other blogs. But I think pretty soon I'll just make affies for those instead of links, and but all of my affies together.
My "Important Thoughts" list has grown longer! Whoa. Way longer than the few it was before--but I'm happy about that. =D
I added a little penguin icon. It's flapping it's wings, but no one can really see it. So I'm wondering how long it will stay up.
I've updated my poll. And I promise the next time it finishes, I will sooooooo be ready! Because I know I wasn't last time, but yeah. I will be!
~I'm still part of the YCF and I've been trying my hardest to live up to the group. If you'd like to be part of it, (and if you have no idea what it's really about, but you're interested in joining the now-bigger-than-ever-before group) ask! :D I'll tak to you about it! :)
I'm searching to improve this place more and more. If you don't like something, tell me... I might just understand you. If you do like something especially tell me! I'd love to know what looks great to you! I've already had someone say they like my little icons, and that made me happy. :D
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Pray Por Favor:
1. I've been taking medication for my old pal, Stomach. He's been great (*rolls eyes*). Not really... I feel like some old person having to pull out an orange bottle and waiting half-an-hour before I eat breakfast. Makes me feel weird, but it seems to be helping. I haven't upchucked anything since. :)
2. MOM's PREGNANT! :D lol. We've told everyone now, so I'm really excited. She's two or three months--I forget, sorry. But I'm really excited. I'll be the oldest of six, instead of five. '=] x2' lol.
3. I never did go see Twin4God for her birthday. We're planning on it soon, but so far she and two other siblings have gotten sick with the stomach virus, so pray for her and her family please!
4. I really want to grow more in my wak with the Lord. Sometimes I feel like I need to more than ever, and I feel on the right track, but everyone needs prayer for that, and I'm asking now for you guys to do that for me.
5. My church's Missions Conference. I'm really excited about it, but some of our missionaries that are elderly aren't doing too well.
Have a great weekend,
~Bookie
January 29, 2009
January 25, 2009
When? How? I'll never know... But that doesn't matter.
WOW. I never thought I'd be posting this much on one topic. Everyday I keep thinking back about my "Creating Yourself" posts, and I've already put the links into my "Important Thoughts" section, but this, my friends, is part THREE of the whole thing.
I'm now asking questions, and I'm almost sure I won't keep going after this--but I'm not fully positive. Every day I have new questions. (*sighs*--lol).
If you haven't read my other posts on this, it's fine. And you'll probably still be able to understand everything--for I pretty much try not to go back a lot onto other posts when I blog, but if you'd LIKE to read them, here's PART ONE and PART TWO.
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Oki-dokes, just like my title of this one I've been thinking. Is there going to be a time when I actually know I've fulfilled WHATEVER it was I was supposed to fulfill? How WILL I ever know? I mean... Here we go about our business, doing the things God wants us to do (or at least we all try, right?)--and as a young lady/man (lol) we can only do SO MUCH, right??
*Whistles and looks away* And since we, for now, can't be the President or can't be a famous person, how do we know we've done something useful? When will we find out we've done something useful?
The other day I was asking myself, "I wonder what it'd be like if 'POOF' I just didn't exist. I was never born." I still wonder that. "How would so-and-so have done this, if I hadn't helped that person?" And then I think, "Nah, she/he would've survived. It wasn't THAT big of a deal." And there I go--the world can move along without me.
But then somewhere around my existence, I will do something. And if my death is the only thing that will effect someone, then so be it--but I'm still trying to figure that out.
Have you ever thought that?? . . .
What if I never started this blog? I wouldn't have the friends I have today.
What if I decided that you weren't worth my friendship? So, nah, we never became the best of pals. (lol)
What if God decided that I didn't need to be born? So therefore--it was just my twin sister, who would be the oldest of everybody.
Would you be able to cope if your best friend was never alive? Would you say, "It's fine, Bookie didn't make much of a difference."? Ha, maybe you would, but there are tons of other people, besides me you could think about--if they never existed. There is you, y'know. :P
POOF! You're gone. What now?
You might figure it out--I'm sure all of you are very smart people, with great noggins.
Or you could still be Einstein/Eisteinette and never figure it out. It's all according to God's plan, just make sure He's proud of you.
--If you decide to get back at someone, you're not showing mercy. They could've done without you for that one time.
--If you decide not to be strong about someone that's bugging you, you're not showing honor. That person could've done without you for that one time.
--If you decide to leave a friend in a time of need, you're not showing love. That person could've done without you for that one time.
There's more, but the point is, even if somebody could've done without you for that one time--I'd feel awful. One time's enough for me. It's the fact that I wasn't acting like a maiden of God, I wasn't making Him proud of me.
No matter what, glorify Him. :)
Have a great Sunday (and week :D)
~Bookie
P.S. BY THE WAY, TODAY IS TWIN4GOD'S BIRTHDAY! WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Even if you've never commented on her blog before, you don't know who she is--I'll bet anything she knows you read my blog. Just say hello and happy birthday!
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D*
I'm now asking questions, and I'm almost sure I won't keep going after this--but I'm not fully positive. Every day I have new questions. (*sighs*--lol).
If you haven't read my other posts on this, it's fine. And you'll probably still be able to understand everything--for I pretty much try not to go back a lot onto other posts when I blog, but if you'd LIKE to read them, here's PART ONE and PART TWO.
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Oki-dokes, just like my title of this one I've been thinking. Is there going to be a time when I actually know I've fulfilled WHATEVER it was I was supposed to fulfill? How WILL I ever know? I mean... Here we go about our business, doing the things God wants us to do (or at least we all try, right?)--and as a young lady/man (lol) we can only do SO MUCH, right??
*Whistles and looks away* And since we, for now, can't be the President or can't be a famous person, how do we know we've done something useful? When will we find out we've done something useful?
The other day I was asking myself, "I wonder what it'd be like if 'POOF' I just didn't exist. I was never born." I still wonder that. "How would so-and-so have done this, if I hadn't helped that person?" And then I think, "Nah, she/he would've survived. It wasn't THAT big of a deal." And there I go--the world can move along without me.
But then somewhere around my existence, I will do something. And if my death is the only thing that will effect someone, then so be it--but I'm still trying to figure that out.
Have you ever thought that?? . . .
What if I never started this blog? I wouldn't have the friends I have today.
What if I decided that you weren't worth my friendship? So, nah, we never became the best of pals. (lol)
What if God decided that I didn't need to be born? So therefore--it was just my twin sister, who would be the oldest of everybody.
Would you be able to cope if your best friend was never alive? Would you say, "It's fine, Bookie didn't make much of a difference."? Ha, maybe you would, but there are tons of other people, besides me you could think about--if they never existed. There is you, y'know. :P
POOF! You're gone. What now?
You might figure it out--I'm sure all of you are very smart people, with great noggins.
Or you could still be Einstein/Eisteinette and never figure it out. It's all according to God's plan, just make sure He's proud of you.
--If you decide to get back at someone, you're not showing mercy. They could've done without you for that one time.
--If you decide not to be strong about someone that's bugging you, you're not showing honor. That person could've done without you for that one time.
--If you decide to leave a friend in a time of need, you're not showing love. That person could've done without you for that one time.
There's more, but the point is, even if somebody could've done without you for that one time--I'd feel awful. One time's enough for me. It's the fact that I wasn't acting like a maiden of God, I wasn't making Him proud of me.
No matter what, glorify Him. :)
Have a great Sunday (and week :D)
~Bookie
P.S. BY THE WAY, TODAY IS TWIN4GOD'S BIRTHDAY! WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Even if you've never commented on her blog before, you don't know who she is--I'll bet anything she knows you read my blog. Just say hello and happy birthday!
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D*
January 22, 2009
Pictures! :)
Alrighty, so I know this is my second post of the day, and SHAME be brought upon me--because I want you guys to see pictures of me and my twin (and just me, too :P).
And a couple other people are putting up pictures of themselves on their blogs, so I felt left out. :D So here are about ten (out of the million I was tagged in by some people! [on another site--FB]) pictures!
(Read my first post too, by the way!)
And a couple other people are putting up pictures of themselves on their blogs, so I felt left out. :D So here are about ten (out of the million I was tagged in by some people! [on another site--FB]) pictures!
(Read my first post too, by the way!)
At the beach, at a park.... At a house. :D
You get the idea.
I'm the one with no glasses (lol), and my twin sis had the glasses... :D
Have a splendid weekend,
~Bookie
What Am I Going To Create Myself?
This is a slight continuation of my last post. Meaning it's got part of what I said in it from my last one.
FAVORITE QUOTES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH THIS (in a sense) :
1)"Happy moments, Praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God. Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God."
2)"Be a fruitloop in a world full of cheerios."
3)"No Jesus, No peace.--Know Jesus, Know peace."
4)"I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." (Phil. 4:13)
My last post was talking about how first, instead of FINDING yourself, you need to do more of creating--and I think I got the fact straight out when I mentioned we shouldn't be committing any suicide, murder, other crimes. It's a fact--EVERYONE knows that.
But it's not just those three things... I mean, come on...That's pretty easy. I pretty much have fully created "myself", because I haven't done any of those.
Nuh-uh. Don't even go there. You haven't even gone to do anything. So you know some right from wrong things. WHOOPEE.
BUT, how DO I know that I'm... you know... Bringing about a person that is unique? I, personally, haven't even fully done that. I'm just a teen who happens to be realizing that.
(Numbers are referring to the numbered-quotes up there)
Starting with 1), I think that has to do with everyone--but not everyone knows that. I know tons of non-Believers who would want nothing to do with something like that quote, and they've already created themselves (in a sense). It's the thing that you ARE creating.
WHAT is it?
WHO are you now?
Seek God all the time, sure--but does that help? Heck, yes. No duh, you're reading scripture, talking to God, listening to Him--OF COURSE it's creating who you are.
What's 2)? Oneof my favorites. Everyone wants to be different from everybody else. It's something that's always inside. You want to be so unique, people will always remember you.
I'm sure you've found that a smidge hard.
*winks* Just a tad, eh?
I'll tell you guys something I never really told anyone. It's something EVERYONE want(ed/s), and not just me. It's kind of selfish too--at least my version of wanting it.
Have you ever wanted to be President? (If so--) WHY? Was it the power?
Have you ever wanted to be a singer/actor/actress/musician? (If so--) WHY? Was it the money?
Have you ever wanted to be known for something (ANYTHING) important? WHY? Was it both the power AND the money? I've always wanted to be the second. Doesn't it kinda look cool to be up on a stage? Uh YEAH--it kinda does!
My reason wasn't really the money (I could be a doctor if I wanted the cha-chings), it was the fact that all these options meant you'd be famous. Known for whatever. I'd create myself to be someone IMPORTANT. But it doesn't come easily. Being a fruitloop in a world full of cheerios is extremely hard.
I've wanted to fit in with groups that I might not have wanted to fit in. But they were the popular ones. (I never did--only maybe for just a little while...but then I said no...END of that) I wanted people to know me for whatever. But everytime--it was me becoming just another cheerio. Does that make you or me feel good? Sometimes... I mean, if you think about it--is it really so bad?
Uh, yeah. Sorry to break it to you, honey, but it is sometimes. I wanted to be President. I wanted people to remember me for doing things right, for making that stuff happen, and then when I died, EVERYONE would be sad. (WELL, at least the country. ;) Then Hillary Clinton crushed my dreams...JKJK. ----> But you can still be a fruitloop even if you don't make it that high.
Wasn't 3) cool?! Haha, I saw it on an icon, but I decided to save space in this entry. :D
If there was absolutely no Jesus in you--there would absolutely be NO peace. If you KNOW Jesus, you do, absolutely-positutely have peace. PERIOD.
And I think that 4) is really neat/cool/whatever-positive. I mean, I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!
Oh yeah, that's pretty awesome. And since you can do ALL things (except for the fact that it's in CHRIST--you can't do wrong things), you can CREATE yourself to be more involved with him. I mean, you can be a GOOD fruitloop, you can do ALL things, you can HAVE peace, and all that good stuff when you're with God. Be known for the great things.
:D
God bless,
~Bookie
FAVORITE QUOTES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH THIS (in a sense) :
1)"Happy moments, Praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God. Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God."
2)"Be a fruitloop in a world full of cheerios."
3)"No Jesus, No peace.--Know Jesus, Know peace."
4)"I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." (Phil. 4:13)
My last post was talking about how first, instead of FINDING yourself, you need to do more of creating--and I think I got the fact straight out when I mentioned we shouldn't be committing any suicide, murder, other crimes. It's a fact--EVERYONE knows that.
But it's not just those three things... I mean, come on...That's pretty easy. I pretty much have fully created "myself", because I haven't done any of those.
Nuh-uh. Don't even go there. You haven't even gone to do anything. So you know some right from wrong things. WHOOPEE.
BUT, how DO I know that I'm... you know... Bringing about a person that is unique? I, personally, haven't even fully done that. I'm just a teen who happens to be realizing that.
(Numbers are referring to the numbered-quotes up there)
Starting with 1), I think that has to do with everyone--but not everyone knows that. I know tons of non-Believers who would want nothing to do with something like that quote, and they've already created themselves (in a sense). It's the thing that you ARE creating.
WHAT is it?
WHO are you now?
Seek God all the time, sure--but does that help? Heck, yes. No duh, you're reading scripture, talking to God, listening to Him--OF COURSE it's creating who you are.
What's 2)? Oneof my favorites. Everyone wants to be different from everybody else. It's something that's always inside. You want to be so unique, people will always remember you.
I'm sure you've found that a smidge hard.
*winks* Just a tad, eh?
I'll tell you guys something I never really told anyone. It's something EVERYONE want(ed/s), and not just me. It's kind of selfish too--at least my version of wanting it.
Have you ever wanted to be President? (If so--) WHY? Was it the power?
Have you ever wanted to be a singer/actor/actress/musician? (If so--) WHY? Was it the money?
Have you ever wanted to be known for something (ANYTHING) important? WHY? Was it both the power AND the money? I've always wanted to be the second. Doesn't it kinda look cool to be up on a stage? Uh YEAH--it kinda does!
My reason wasn't really the money (I could be a doctor if I wanted the cha-chings), it was the fact that all these options meant you'd be famous. Known for whatever. I'd create myself to be someone IMPORTANT. But it doesn't come easily. Being a fruitloop in a world full of cheerios is extremely hard.
I've wanted to fit in with groups that I might not have wanted to fit in. But they were the popular ones. (I never did--only maybe for just a little while...but then I said no...END of that) I wanted people to know me for whatever. But everytime--it was me becoming just another cheerio. Does that make you or me feel good? Sometimes... I mean, if you think about it--is it really so bad?
Uh, yeah. Sorry to break it to you, honey, but it is sometimes. I wanted to be President. I wanted people to remember me for doing things right, for making that stuff happen, and then when I died, EVERYONE would be sad. (WELL, at least the country. ;) Then Hillary Clinton crushed my dreams...JKJK. ----> But you can still be a fruitloop even if you don't make it that high.
Wasn't 3) cool?! Haha, I saw it on an icon, but I decided to save space in this entry. :D
If there was absolutely no Jesus in you--there would absolutely be NO peace. If you KNOW Jesus, you do, absolutely-positutely have peace. PERIOD.
And I think that 4) is really neat/cool/whatever-positive. I mean, I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!
Oh yeah, that's pretty awesome. And since you can do ALL things (except for the fact that it's in CHRIST--you can't do wrong things), you can CREATE yourself to be more involved with him. I mean, you can be a GOOD fruitloop, you can do ALL things, you can HAVE peace, and all that good stuff when you're with God. Be known for the great things.
:D
God bless,
~Bookie
January 20, 2009
Life Isn't About Finding Yourself, It's About Creating Yourself
I saw this icon on some site, and I don't know... I just loved it. I'm always hearing about everyone say they don't know who they are, they don't know what to do in life, they want to find themselves, etc. You really get into it after a while. I used to think things like that--and, honestly, sometimes I do. I don't know what God has in store for me in the future. I could die tomorrow, or I could live till I'm a hundred years old. You never know... But what I do know is that I'm here for a reason. Obviously you may not be sure of it right now, but you could be sure soon or never. I started thinking the other day, of how random I'm placed. Of just how perfectly I fit in with my family, friends, everyone.
The way I was created--I'm a girl, not a guy.
The family I was born into--most everyone's Christian.
The friends I have-- enough to be able to be myself.
Sure, there are problems everywhere. Does no ever not go through trials? We do! All the time. Dude, read the Bible and figure out that God tests you. He won't NOT test you. He'll never give you anything you're not capable of handling. Never. He's better than that. Some people commit murder, some people commit suicide, some people just commit crimes, and a lot say "Sorry, God just made me this way."
EXCUSE ME?!
OR, they say, "I found what my purpose was in life."
I don't think it was to destruct.
WHAT, so you think that since you don't know what to do in life now, there's never going to be a purpose, mine as well live it out doing what your sinful nature wants?
Ha, yeah, "(*mockingly, of course*) I don't know what to do with myself, so I mine as well die, kill, or do something wrong. There's no point in living anyway."
Uh, no.
I don't think so. I actually remember this one specific conversation with my mom when we were in her room. I was younger then, but I was thoughtful. I asked her the time when you finally find out what you're here for.
And I forget the answer right now, but I can tell you this moment, that you've already done what you're called to do, you're already DOING what you've been called to do. There are probably more than a hundred reasons why you were born, why you're family with so-and-so, and why you're friends with whomever. You've probably established more than what you thought you COULD do. I just started realizing that my past friendships with a couple people, that didn't make it until now--only a few years, still had an effect on both me and the person involved.
Everything you do, everything you read, everything you think about, whatever it is, you're CREATING yourself. You may be finding yoursef too... The talents inside you never knew about, but they HAD to be created first.
Never would I have thought I'd do NaNoWriMo and be writing an over-55k-story when I was younger.
Never would I have thought I'd be playing the violin.
Never would I have thought I'd know people I didn't know before, today.
It's crazy to think about, but every moment you're just more and more involved. There may be one MAIN reason why you're here, but I'm sure there are several others that haven't caught your attention yet.
Stay creating,
~Bookie
January 18, 2009
Count down to many events! (and a picture of me and a very special friend I got to meet!) xD
Alright, so you know what I totally forgot to do?! Post picture of my meet with Twin4God! I mean, I go on her blog and there I am with her! But I forget to post pictures from MY camera! Shame be brought upon me. *shakes head*. OKAY.
We were goofing off. xD (T4G on the left, and I am on the right)
And then when we had to leave...... :'( (Though our faces don't show we're sad, so apparently inside I was the only one upset.)
And I'd also like you to know, that the scrapbook I'm carrying is the book I was given. THE most AMAZING gift ever, and if you've been reading my blog, you'll know why. :D
I'm SO excited.
Wants to know why?
Of course you do!
FIRST, besides important things like church and my co-op, there are several things I'm going to do this month and in February!
So we'll go from the closest. :D
There are:
1. FIVE more days (as in SINCO--espanol language, IVEFAY--piglatin, 5, and whatever language) till I go see T4G AGAIN! I'm going to be celebrating her birthday with her! She..... and her twin brother will be turning 15! YAY FOR THEM! So go on her blog and wish her a very happy birthday please!
2. THIRTEEN more days till FEBRUARY! Meaning, the SECOND month of the year. And I have no clue if I'm read for that, but whatevs.
3. TWENTY more days till I celebrate Princesses K and S's birthday! :D Yay for them too!
4. TWENTY-FIVE more days until my (and my TWIN'S, and Pres. Abe's) BIRTHDAY! Haha, YAY. (You have no clue how excited I am!!)
5. TWENTY-SIX more days until my church is going to have a Missions Conference (for most of our missionaries my church supports--I'm excited for that.) And I'm also thrilled it's the day after my birthday! (It lasts three days, too)
6. (I guess we can count Valentine's day too. Which is in TWENTY-SEVEN more days. Though I'm not as thrilled. I always used to be, but not anymore. It's fun to give candy and have fun with friends, but it gets soooo freakin tiresome. :P
So yeah... :D You can tell I'm one stoked person. =]
Have a great and blessed day, :)
~Bookie
We were goofing off. xD (T4G on the left, and I am on the right)And then when we had to leave...... :'( (Though our faces don't show we're sad, so apparently inside I was the only one upset.)And I'd also like you to know, that the scrapbook I'm carrying is the book I was given. THE most AMAZING gift ever, and if you've been reading my blog, you'll know why. :D
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I'm SO excited.
Wants to know why?
Of course you do!
FIRST, besides important things like church and my co-op, there are several things I'm going to do this month and in February!
So we'll go from the closest. :D
There are:
1. FIVE more days (as in SINCO--espanol language, IVEFAY--piglatin, 5, and whatever language) till I go see T4G AGAIN! I'm going to be celebrating her birthday with her! She..... and her twin brother will be turning 15! YAY FOR THEM! So go on her blog and wish her a very happy birthday please!
2. THIRTEEN more days till FEBRUARY! Meaning, the SECOND month of the year. And I have no clue if I'm read for that, but whatevs.
3. TWENTY more days till I celebrate Princesses K and S's birthday! :D Yay for them too!
4. TWENTY-FIVE more days until my (and my TWIN'S, and Pres. Abe's) BIRTHDAY! Haha, YAY. (You have no clue how excited I am!!)
5. TWENTY-SIX more days until my church is going to have a Missions Conference (for most of our missionaries my church supports--I'm excited for that.) And I'm also thrilled it's the day after my birthday! (It lasts three days, too)
6. (I guess we can count Valentine's day too. Which is in TWENTY-SEVEN more days. Though I'm not as thrilled. I always used to be, but not anymore. It's fun to give candy and have fun with friends, but it gets soooo freakin tiresome. :P
So yeah... :D You can tell I'm one stoked person. =]
Have a great and blessed day, :)
~Bookie
January 12, 2009
Just 'cause I'm different doesn't mean it's bad--I'm still cool.
Oh, goodness, so I haven't done....An "Important Thoughts" post in FOREVER!!! Time to get a started, which also mens that I need to update my poll again. Because it's been months, and I haven't changed it. --But back to the point.
Have you ever noticed that everything about everyone speaks all about them? How whatever you do--everyone assumes something about? And then, suddenly there's judgement?
I've noticed a lot, how there are people that, right when you do something they may not appreciate, they judge you, right then and there.
It's happened to me.
It's happened to everybody.
You'll do something crazy or silly, and maybe a serious person doesn't find that amusing, so instead of jsut telling you, you already get the feeling they dislike you instantly.
Yep.
But I've also gotten that, where, since I'm a Christian, I don't say things non-Christians do.
But does that mean I'm "out of it"? Nope. It does NOT. And it doesn't mean you're out of it either.
The other day someone made this point, in front of everybody, over the internet with a bad word. One, that most peopel use,that for sure God doesn't appreciate, and neither do I.
This kid was extremely upset, and he said it such a way, that you could tell he was upset. But did that mean it was right to use that in ront of EVERYBODY?! Nope. It was NOT.
And guess what I said? Blunt ole me. *rolls eyes* I said to him, "Oh that's nice. Great choice of words." Of course, it was said sarcastically. :P And he said something like "What? ___ word? I think it's an amazing word!"
Psh. Stupid kid. Stupid word. Stupid moment.
And I told him that it wasn't. And that he shouldn't have said it infront of everybody, and that I didn't think it was an "amazing" word, and that it wasn't very Christlike. He said he wasn't happy with the world, and I understood he was frustrated, and I understood that I was probably "out of it" right now. At least to him.
WELL, I said I would pray for him, and he said thank you. I said I hoped everything went better, and he thanked me again.
We haven't spoken since, but what I know for sure, that he never felt and I did: Was the sense that I did right. It didn't matter if that kid didn't like God or didn't care in the world what was supposed to be said and done, like I did. I knew I had done right. And that made me feel good, unlike something he was feeling.
Just because at that moment you spoke up for what you believe in, doesn't mean you're some loser--and if someone tells you that, don't trust their word upon it.
You're wayyyy cooler than they'll ever be.
I'm cool, 'cause I have Christ,
~Bookie
Have you ever noticed that everything about everyone speaks all about them? How whatever you do--everyone assumes something about? And then, suddenly there's judgement?
I've noticed a lot, how there are people that, right when you do something they may not appreciate, they judge you, right then and there.
It's happened to me.
It's happened to everybody.
You'll do something crazy or silly, and maybe a serious person doesn't find that amusing, so instead of jsut telling you, you already get the feeling they dislike you instantly.
Yep.
But I've also gotten that, where, since I'm a Christian, I don't say things non-Christians do.
But does that mean I'm "out of it"? Nope. It does NOT. And it doesn't mean you're out of it either.
The other day someone made this point, in front of everybody, over the internet with a bad word. One, that most peopel use,that for sure God doesn't appreciate, and neither do I.
This kid was extremely upset, and he said it such a way, that you could tell he was upset. But did that mean it was right to use that in ront of EVERYBODY?! Nope. It was NOT.
And guess what I said? Blunt ole me. *rolls eyes* I said to him, "Oh that's nice. Great choice of words." Of course, it was said sarcastically. :P And he said something like "What? ___ word? I think it's an amazing word!"
Psh. Stupid kid. Stupid word. Stupid moment.
And I told him that it wasn't. And that he shouldn't have said it infront of everybody, and that I didn't think it was an "amazing" word, and that it wasn't very Christlike. He said he wasn't happy with the world, and I understood he was frustrated, and I understood that I was probably "out of it" right now. At least to him.
WELL, I said I would pray for him, and he said thank you. I said I hoped everything went better, and he thanked me again.
We haven't spoken since, but what I know for sure, that he never felt and I did: Was the sense that I did right. It didn't matter if that kid didn't like God or didn't care in the world what was supposed to be said and done, like I did. I knew I had done right. And that made me feel good, unlike something he was feeling.
Just because at that moment you spoke up for what you believe in, doesn't mean you're some loser--and if someone tells you that, don't trust their word upon it.
You're wayyyy cooler than they'll ever be.
I'm cool, 'cause I have Christ,
~Bookie
January 7, 2009
Did ya know this much about me?--2
So I'm conitnuing from my last post, because it was late at night, and I wasn't finished, though I had to go home (from mi abuela's casa<---ha, I spoke espanol xD)--so here we go!
Did Ya Know:
13) That when I smile (and it's really not something you need to know), my left side [your right side) is more smiling...than my right side?? o_O lol, weirddd.
14) My escape for peace and from everything else in the world is outside on the side of the house, in my backyard, or in my mango tree. You will find me there often, either thinking or reading. :)
15) When I listen to music on my mp3 player, I tend to actually dance and go along with the music (like if it says something like "and I walked", then I walk)--and lip sync. :P
16) I write songs & poems, along with my story.
17) I love to sing, though I won't sing for real in front of you. Because if you do hear me, then I probably am mocking someone else (and then I'm asked, "Is that your real voice?!" and when I answer no, they never believe me... Ho-hum, I've been told I have a nice one though ;)
18) I'm a late nighter, I'm an owl, or you can also say I'm mostly nocturnal--till it reaches 12-1 AM. :D (I'm usually so engrossed in my book, my eyelids need to REALLLLLY be drooping, and I almost fall asleep on the couch.)
19) I get scared so easily in movies. I freaked in Prince Caspian and Nancy Drew, which are PG movies--and I tell you, I hide behind people in the ones higher rated than those--WHEN I watch those with my family. (they're usually to show me history and whatever, but I actually enjoy doing it)
20) My absolutely FAVORITE (and I mean...FAVORITE) food is lasagna. =] I love it, and if you hear my sibs say it before me, it just means they either copied or something--because I loved it first! xD
21) I love to create. Which means play-doh, clay, most everything. But especially clay/ceramics. I used to be horrible at it, btu I found out I can actually do a pretty good job.
22) I really don't cook much, but I CAN and it does come out pretty good. So far no one has complained. :)
23) I have so far four siblings--an identical twin sis, next is a younger bro, then comes two little sisters. :)
24) I actually like Math, unlike a LOT of people I know--even though I love to write. Strange, eh? That's me...O.O
25) Don't ever give me tomatos, I hate them. Though, if I'm at someone's house having dinner and there are tomatos, I tend to hide them under other foods, in a napkin, give 'em to a family member, or throw them away as quickly as possible. Sometimes, I even take whatever utensil there is to serve the tomatos on whatever meal, and I push them off my plate or away from the food I'm getting. It's sad.
26) Don't give me anything with mustard, ketchup, ranch, or anything. I used to lvoe dressings or sauces on my food, well not anymore.
27) Referring to #26, I eat my salad dry. After you are so used to being in the habit of eating that disgusting tasting lettuce by itself, it actually starts to taste sweet/good. --And it's healthier, for those of you...health freaks. :D
28) I don't like spinach. xD
29) I can be extremely blunt about things. If you've said something that offended me a little/lot, then I will tell you right away. It's one of those "Do unto others, what you want them to do to you" or whatever.
30) Me and my brother are the trouble makers in the house. :P (he's my accomplice xD)
31) My brother and I love to bother our other siblings--especially when it becomes extremely funny when they get upset. :D
32) I love quotes that have to do with reality.
33) I love life, even if there are problems. I count them as blessings in disguise and not curses.
34) I've been told I have funny facial expressions (mostly from my brother--and a couple other).
35) When there are are times with food around I tend to peel my grapes with my teeth while talking. And when I stop talking, I stop peeling grapes. :D (I wonder if it has nervous issues or something--I'm still trying to figure that one out.)
And I'll have more...later. Because I plan on doing these for a while... Not in a row all the time. Just randomly. It's fun, and I'd like to introduce myself more. Even if they are random stuff ;)
In a while crocodiles,
~Bookie
Did Ya Know:
13) That when I smile (and it's really not something you need to know), my left side [your right side) is more smiling...than my right side?? o_O lol, weirddd.
14) My escape for peace and from everything else in the world is outside on the side of the house, in my backyard, or in my mango tree. You will find me there often, either thinking or reading. :)
15) When I listen to music on my mp3 player, I tend to actually dance and go along with the music (like if it says something like "and I walked", then I walk)--and lip sync. :P
16) I write songs & poems, along with my story.
17) I love to sing, though I won't sing for real in front of you. Because if you do hear me, then I probably am mocking someone else (and then I'm asked, "Is that your real voice?!" and when I answer no, they never believe me... Ho-hum, I've been told I have a nice one though ;)
18) I'm a late nighter, I'm an owl, or you can also say I'm mostly nocturnal--till it reaches 12-1 AM. :D (I'm usually so engrossed in my book, my eyelids need to REALLLLLY be drooping, and I almost fall asleep on the couch.)
19) I get scared so easily in movies. I freaked in Prince Caspian and Nancy Drew, which are PG movies--and I tell you, I hide behind people in the ones higher rated than those--WHEN I watch those with my family. (they're usually to show me history and whatever, but I actually enjoy doing it)
20) My absolutely FAVORITE (and I mean...FAVORITE) food is lasagna. =] I love it, and if you hear my sibs say it before me, it just means they either copied or something--because I loved it first! xD
21) I love to create. Which means play-doh, clay, most everything. But especially clay/ceramics. I used to be horrible at it, btu I found out I can actually do a pretty good job.
22) I really don't cook much, but I CAN and it does come out pretty good. So far no one has complained. :)
23) I have so far four siblings--an identical twin sis, next is a younger bro, then comes two little sisters. :)
24) I actually like Math, unlike a LOT of people I know--even though I love to write. Strange, eh? That's me...O.O
25) Don't ever give me tomatos, I hate them. Though, if I'm at someone's house having dinner and there are tomatos, I tend to hide them under other foods, in a napkin, give 'em to a family member, or throw them away as quickly as possible. Sometimes, I even take whatever utensil there is to serve the tomatos on whatever meal, and I push them off my plate or away from the food I'm getting. It's sad.
26) Don't give me anything with mustard, ketchup, ranch, or anything. I used to lvoe dressings or sauces on my food, well not anymore.
27) Referring to #26, I eat my salad dry. After you are so used to being in the habit of eating that disgusting tasting lettuce by itself, it actually starts to taste sweet/good. --And it's healthier, for those of you...health freaks. :D
28) I don't like spinach. xD
29) I can be extremely blunt about things. If you've said something that offended me a little/lot, then I will tell you right away. It's one of those "Do unto others, what you want them to do to you" or whatever.
30) Me and my brother are the trouble makers in the house. :P (he's my accomplice xD)
31) My brother and I love to bother our other siblings--especially when it becomes extremely funny when they get upset. :D
32) I love quotes that have to do with reality.
33) I love life, even if there are problems. I count them as blessings in disguise and not curses.
34) I've been told I have funny facial expressions (mostly from my brother--and a couple other).
35) When there are are times with food around I tend to peel my grapes with my teeth while talking. And when I stop talking, I stop peeling grapes. :D (I wonder if it has nervous issues or something--I'm still trying to figure that one out.)
And I'll have more...later. Because I plan on doing these for a while... Not in a row all the time. Just randomly. It's fun, and I'd like to introduce myself more. Even if they are random stuff ;)
In a while crocodiles,
~Bookie
January 6, 2009
Did ya know this much about me before?? :D
So I know this is like...what? my second post for today. :P But I decided to do...a nice and fun post--one I haven't REALLLLLLY done for a little while.
I get all of these kinds of forwards through e-mail or through my FB, but I decided not to do those yet...I thought of one that could tell you guys more about me. MOST all of you only know me by my blog, some of you I know in person (a couple on my blog roll :), but even you guys don't know me that well. =] So I'm doing a "Did Ya Know this Much About Me Before?" Which is sort of like.....20 questions I guess..or the Question Game, but yeah--sort of. :D
Starting now--
Did Ya Know:
1) That I have this crazy craving for M&M's? I mean, I love chocolate, but I loveeeeee m&m's!
2) That I'm an extreme klutz? I mean, I trip EVERYwhere I go, I walk into things, and yeah...
3) I love Mystery/Romance books (Christian ones of course)
4) I love to talk. Or ramble. Or....Yeah. (And you know what, I think you guys know that already)
5) I have a dog
6) My favorite movie is National Treasure and Amazing Grace.
7) I like all kinds of Christian music, and even some non-Christian music--as long as their decent.
8) I smile wayy too much!
9) I laugh too much too. And it probably bothers people how happy I usually am around them.
10) I prefer to not bother people with my problems, unless they tell me too. (which means if I'm all super duper upset inside--I can mask my feelings until I find myself...bubbling a little :P)
11) I love God to the extreme. But you guys do know that (YOU BETTER!)
12) I have some pretty amazing friends.--And if I talk to you like lots, means I love talking to you! :P nd you're stuck with me forever...or a really long time. xD
....And I'll do more later! :D
~Bookie
I get all of these kinds of forwards through e-mail or through my FB, but I decided not to do those yet...I thought of one that could tell you guys more about me. MOST all of you only know me by my blog, some of you I know in person (a couple on my blog roll :), but even you guys don't know me that well. =] So I'm doing a "Did Ya Know this Much About Me Before?" Which is sort of like.....20 questions I guess..or the Question Game, but yeah--sort of. :D
Starting now--
Did Ya Know:
1) That I have this crazy craving for M&M's? I mean, I love chocolate, but I loveeeeee m&m's!
2) That I'm an extreme klutz? I mean, I trip EVERYwhere I go, I walk into things, and yeah...
3) I love Mystery/Romance books (Christian ones of course)
4) I love to talk. Or ramble. Or....Yeah. (And you know what, I think you guys know that already)
5) I have a dog
6) My favorite movie is National Treasure and Amazing Grace.
7) I like all kinds of Christian music, and even some non-Christian music--as long as their decent.
8) I smile wayy too much!
9) I laugh too much too. And it probably bothers people how happy I usually am around them.
10) I prefer to not bother people with my problems, unless they tell me too. (which means if I'm all super duper upset inside--I can mask my feelings until I find myself...bubbling a little :P)
11) I love God to the extreme. But you guys do know that (YOU BETTER!)
12) I have some pretty amazing friends.--And if I talk to you like lots, means I love talking to you! :P nd you're stuck with me forever...or a really long time. xD
....And I'll do more later! :D
~Bookie
December 30, 2008
THANK YOU SO MUCH. You guys had me all teary-eyed, and I was so.....HAPPY!
This is my thank note/post for everyone that participated in the scrapbook!
________
(continuing--)
NO WAY.
T4G had gotten (somehow, someway, I have NO CLUE, at all) all of my best friends from the forum to participate in at least one or two pages of my scrapbook. I was stunned. Like...AMAZED, and I loved it! You guys had paragraphs, either handwritten or typed, of notes to me. You drew pictures! You gave me poems. You were so creative, so nice, so AWESOME, that I was stunned.
Do you know why?
Not only were the pages amazing, and I was so thankful.
I was shocked because the notes that I read later on, after the zoo with T, told me how special and nice, and great and whatever, of a friend I was.
????
Where did this come from?
Everyone said I was going to cry, and I was sure I was, but when they caught me on video, it hadn't hit me how special this was. I was amazed that someone would do it for me, but I hadn't read your letters, your stories, everything. I hadn't read any of it.
So, AFTER I left T, I got in the car, and guess what? I started crying a minute after I opened it.
When I read stuff that said "I love you" "I'm praying for you" "You're such an awesome person/friend" I was so speechless. I never thought I could be a person's friend like that.
So I'm saying thank you right now. I loved it, and I still don't believe I received such an awesome gift.
I've had a couple people in my life tell me that I was inspiring. But I never ever believed it. I've had people compliment me on my writing, on the way I look, on my personality, but that was it. I had no proof any of it was there.
I've gotten gifts for birthdays, Christmas, all kinds of holidays. There were cards that should have made me cry, maybe, and gifts extremely special, but I always received those. Everyone else did too. It wasn't as special getting anything, ebcause it happened every year.
NO ONE has ever made me something like this.
Page after page, tears after tears, I felt so special, and I'm still wondering why you guys think I am. :)
I'm saying special thanks:
DoT--You're wonderful! I loved reading yours every second! It made me laugh and so happy!
Mob-- I was laughing so hard at the Mobicon page! I loved it! Thanks so much for everything :)
Masq.-- I loved your drawings, your songs, and poems! Thanks so much!
NotYourAverageGirl-- I don't care if we haven't talked much! I cried when I read yours! I loved looking at the pictures, EVERYTHING! I appreciate you just as much as everyone else I know!
H.K.-- I LOVED your page! The drawings were awesome! THANK YOU!
GLG-- What a wonderful drawing! I hope to meet you someday, too!
Zero-- This note.... You kept saying how not cool or creative it was compared to everyone else's. GUESS WHAT? Just saying what you said had me crying even harder. I couldn't believe it, because I thought you thought I was some weird person. :P
Gal-- YOUR STORY WAS AWESOME! I loved reading it!
Twirl-- That poem you did was so special. I won't ever forget it! Thanks so much! :)
T4G-- I loved the whole journal thing! I loved how you thought I was weird and annoying in the beginning and how great of friends we are now! Thanks for actually sticking to me even if I am obnoxious. (Tell your bro I say thanks too!
Yelli-- I LOVED IT! :D :D :D Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you! ;)
Lystar_the_unicorn-- :D :D :D :D :D :D Thanks soooo much! I'm going to tell you THANK YOU, and I bet you're going to be like "for the millionth time, she's saying thanks", but I loved it! xD
There was one extra person, but T4G told me she couldn't figure out who it was... So if I do find out soon, I will thank you through PM or something!
The words you guys wrote to me made me feel so special and important, that I'm wondering if it's all true. ;) I personally think I'm some ridiculous person, never could give realadvice, inpsire, or be cool to anyone.
*glomps all of you* Most all of you I've never met in my life, but I feel like I know a lot fo you, and if you don't feel that way, then I feel so sorry for you! HAHAHA, WANT TO KNOW WHY?
Because, since you participated and stuff, it's too late to back out, because I will be posting on your profiles on the forum wayyyyy more! xD
THANK YOU!
~Bookie
________
(continuing--)
NO WAY.
T4G had gotten (somehow, someway, I have NO CLUE, at all) all of my best friends from the forum to participate in at least one or two pages of my scrapbook. I was stunned. Like...AMAZED, and I loved it! You guys had paragraphs, either handwritten or typed, of notes to me. You drew pictures! You gave me poems. You were so creative, so nice, so AWESOME, that I was stunned.
Do you know why?
Not only were the pages amazing, and I was so thankful.
I was shocked because the notes that I read later on, after the zoo with T, told me how special and nice, and great and whatever, of a friend I was.
????
Where did this come from?
Everyone said I was going to cry, and I was sure I was, but when they caught me on video, it hadn't hit me how special this was. I was amazed that someone would do it for me, but I hadn't read your letters, your stories, everything. I hadn't read any of it.
So, AFTER I left T, I got in the car, and guess what? I started crying a minute after I opened it.
When I read stuff that said "I love you" "I'm praying for you" "You're such an awesome person/friend" I was so speechless. I never thought I could be a person's friend like that.
So I'm saying thank you right now. I loved it, and I still don't believe I received such an awesome gift.
I've had a couple people in my life tell me that I was inspiring. But I never ever believed it. I've had people compliment me on my writing, on the way I look, on my personality, but that was it. I had no proof any of it was there.
I've gotten gifts for birthdays, Christmas, all kinds of holidays. There were cards that should have made me cry, maybe, and gifts extremely special, but I always received those. Everyone else did too. It wasn't as special getting anything, ebcause it happened every year.
NO ONE has ever made me something like this.
Page after page, tears after tears, I felt so special, and I'm still wondering why you guys think I am. :)
I'm saying special thanks:
DoT--You're wonderful! I loved reading yours every second! It made me laugh and so happy!
Mob-- I was laughing so hard at the Mobicon page! I loved it! Thanks so much for everything :)
Masq.-- I loved your drawings, your songs, and poems! Thanks so much!
NotYourAverageGirl-- I don't care if we haven't talked much! I cried when I read yours! I loved looking at the pictures, EVERYTHING! I appreciate you just as much as everyone else I know!
H.K.-- I LOVED your page! The drawings were awesome! THANK YOU!
GLG-- What a wonderful drawing! I hope to meet you someday, too!
Zero-- This note.... You kept saying how not cool or creative it was compared to everyone else's. GUESS WHAT? Just saying what you said had me crying even harder. I couldn't believe it, because I thought you thought I was some weird person. :P
Gal-- YOUR STORY WAS AWESOME! I loved reading it!
Twirl-- That poem you did was so special. I won't ever forget it! Thanks so much! :)
T4G-- I loved the whole journal thing! I loved how you thought I was weird and annoying in the beginning and how great of friends we are now! Thanks for actually sticking to me even if I am obnoxious. (Tell your bro I say thanks too!
Yelli-- I LOVED IT! :D :D :D Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you! ;)
Lystar_the_unicorn-- :D :D :D :D :D :D Thanks soooo much! I'm going to tell you THANK YOU, and I bet you're going to be like "for the millionth time, she's saying thanks", but I loved it! xD
There was one extra person, but T4G told me she couldn't figure out who it was... So if I do find out soon, I will thank you through PM or something!
The words you guys wrote to me made me feel so special and important, that I'm wondering if it's all true. ;) I personally think I'm some ridiculous person, never could give realadvice, inpsire, or be cool to anyone.
*glomps all of you* Most all of you I've never met in my life, but I feel like I know a lot fo you, and if you don't feel that way, then I feel so sorry for you! HAHAHA, WANT TO KNOW WHY?
Because, since you participated and stuff, it's too late to back out, because I will be posting on your profiles on the forum wayyyyy more! xD
THANK YOU!
~Bookie
An amazing day, with an amazing family, and an amazing Christmas gift.
So this completely selfish post is all about my day.
BUT GUESS WHAT?!
I met Twin4God today! And that was so cool! And I'll tell you all about it, along with a twist that I never expected.
NEVER.
EVER.
_______
I was super excited today. I was going to the zoo, and though that never REALLY makes me excited, I was spending it with my family, a friend of mine, and a penpal I had never met before--but knew too well. ;) I told T4G that I Was going to give her a huge hug the moment we met.
SHE KNEW IT WAS COMING.
She said she'd give me a huge hug too. But I guess she wasn't expecting a "run-up-and-hug-and-squeal", because I felt like some weirdo after that.
YES. I was the only one running.
And the only one giving the tight hug.
;) JKJK, nah, I think T4G was weirded out at first, but that's cool--I'm still wondering, though, if she's dissappointed or regretting today. :D
I had a blast at least, and I'm sure she had fun too! We saw animals, laughed, took pictures, joked around, ate... Passed out in the heat. All that fun stuff, you know?
Well, I told her earlier through an IM that I wanted to give her a present for Christmas--but this was before I met her. This was before I even knew I was, and so therefore, I was making my present small enough to fit in an envelope to send.
Ho-hum, it was a dinky little friednship bracelet that took less than a day to make. How stupid is that? Why do I think it was stupid, you ask? WELL, everytime I talked to her, she said that everyday she was working on her present for me.
EVERY DAY. Do you know how awful I felt? Then I found out I was meeting her.
Wants to know what my prayers sounded like?
"Lord, please let her think I'm a good friend." "Lord, when I meet her, don't let her be scared or freaked. Don't let her think I'm a weirdo." "Lord, when I meet her and give her my present, can you please give her some kind of feeling so she'll like it for the time I'm with her, at least? PLEASE?!" And then when I gave it to her, she said she left her's in the car so I wouldn't have to walk with it everywhere.
And I'm like, excuse me? Like, please don't tell me it's big. She unwrapped mine, said she liked it, gave me a hug, but we all knew the truth. And, coincedentally *wink* the beads that spelled her name on the bracelet kept falling off. I was like "Forget it, T" :P
Then we had an awesome day at the zoo, soooo amazing, and it got better.
By the time we were dead tired, I was like, oh gosh, I still have to wait and get the present she made me, and beleieve me, I was excited, but extremely nervous (like right before I met her too).
Her brother got the gift and brought it to me, and it was a nice size. I was like "WHOA". Then everyone started pulling out their cameras, putting it on video setting.
What in the world could this BE?!
Everyone said I was going to cry, and I was just...not sure. What could it be? Because nothing makes me cry THAT easily...At least, never a gift, for sure.
So I start feeling it. And I start....You know....Feeling a sort of scrapbook thing under the wrapping paper.
I open it....
And guess what?!
It is a scrapbook.
Oh yeah, that made me cry. :P (T4G, you know I'm joking, I'll tell you for real what I thought!)
Not only was a scrapbook thatI thought was empty, it was the most AMAZING and PRECIOUS scrapbook ever.
Want to know what was inside it? It most definitely wasn't empty.
On the cover it says (for it's in my lap right now) "Bookie's Book", and on top of that, where I picture should belong, it says (on a piece of paper) "Bookie's Picture Goes Here". :D WAIT, that may seem super nice, but that's not the twist or the best part at all!
I was thinking, "Ooh, a scrapbook, how nice! But... Why would that make me cry?"
GUESS WHAT WAS INSIDE.
JUST GUESS! Because I couldn't whatsoever!
It was filled with pages. But pages of what?! I had no pictures of myself with T until today!
INSIDE were pages filed from friends on the DIOM forum.
NO WAY.
NO WAY, NO WAY, NO WAY.
(okay, this continues to another post, this one was only so I could tel you about how wonderful my day was, my next one is my Thank You post)
I'm so happy,
~Bookie
BUT GUESS WHAT?!
I met Twin4God today! And that was so cool! And I'll tell you all about it, along with a twist that I never expected.
NEVER.
EVER.
_______
I was super excited today. I was going to the zoo, and though that never REALLY makes me excited, I was spending it with my family, a friend of mine, and a penpal I had never met before--but knew too well. ;) I told T4G that I Was going to give her a huge hug the moment we met.
SHE KNEW IT WAS COMING.
She said she'd give me a huge hug too. But I guess she wasn't expecting a "run-up-and-hug-and-squeal", because I felt like some weirdo after that.
YES. I was the only one running.
And the only one giving the tight hug.
;) JKJK, nah, I think T4G was weirded out at first, but that's cool--I'm still wondering, though, if she's dissappointed or regretting today. :D
I had a blast at least, and I'm sure she had fun too! We saw animals, laughed, took pictures, joked around, ate... Passed out in the heat. All that fun stuff, you know?
Well, I told her earlier through an IM that I wanted to give her a present for Christmas--but this was before I met her. This was before I even knew I was, and so therefore, I was making my present small enough to fit in an envelope to send.
Ho-hum, it was a dinky little friednship bracelet that took less than a day to make. How stupid is that? Why do I think it was stupid, you ask? WELL, everytime I talked to her, she said that everyday she was working on her present for me.
EVERY DAY. Do you know how awful I felt? Then I found out I was meeting her.
Wants to know what my prayers sounded like?
"Lord, please let her think I'm a good friend." "Lord, when I meet her, don't let her be scared or freaked. Don't let her think I'm a weirdo." "Lord, when I meet her and give her my present, can you please give her some kind of feeling so she'll like it for the time I'm with her, at least? PLEASE?!" And then when I gave it to her, she said she left her's in the car so I wouldn't have to walk with it everywhere.
And I'm like, excuse me? Like, please don't tell me it's big. She unwrapped mine, said she liked it, gave me a hug, but we all knew the truth. And, coincedentally *wink* the beads that spelled her name on the bracelet kept falling off. I was like "Forget it, T" :P
Then we had an awesome day at the zoo, soooo amazing, and it got better.
By the time we were dead tired, I was like, oh gosh, I still have to wait and get the present she made me, and beleieve me, I was excited, but extremely nervous (like right before I met her too).
Her brother got the gift and brought it to me, and it was a nice size. I was like "WHOA". Then everyone started pulling out their cameras, putting it on video setting.
What in the world could this BE?!
Everyone said I was going to cry, and I was just...not sure. What could it be? Because nothing makes me cry THAT easily...At least, never a gift, for sure.
So I start feeling it. And I start....You know....Feeling a sort of scrapbook thing under the wrapping paper.
I open it....
And guess what?!
It is a scrapbook.
Oh yeah, that made me cry. :P (T4G, you know I'm joking, I'll tell you for real what I thought!)
Not only was a scrapbook thatI thought was empty, it was the most AMAZING and PRECIOUS scrapbook ever.
Want to know what was inside it? It most definitely wasn't empty.
On the cover it says (for it's in my lap right now) "Bookie's Book", and on top of that, where I picture should belong, it says (on a piece of paper) "Bookie's Picture Goes Here". :D WAIT, that may seem super nice, but that's not the twist or the best part at all!
I was thinking, "Ooh, a scrapbook, how nice! But... Why would that make me cry?"
GUESS WHAT WAS INSIDE.
JUST GUESS! Because I couldn't whatsoever!
It was filled with pages. But pages of what?! I had no pictures of myself with T until today!
INSIDE were pages filed from friends on the DIOM forum.
NO WAY.
NO WAY, NO WAY, NO WAY.
(okay, this continues to another post, this one was only so I could tel you about how wonderful my day was, my next one is my Thank You post)
I'm so happy,
~Bookie
December 29, 2008
The Negotiator && Just Fun Stuff
WOW. Okay, so since I'm obsessed with my blogging, and I check it everyday, and I don't have any important topics today (which, by the way, it's 1:01 AM Monday morning), I've decided to just post for fun! =]
So here we go:
This is one of my new favorite books! I mean, honestly, it was exactly my type. But for those of you who don't like those Romance/Mystery books, then maybe it's not for you. But if you don't mind that stuff, it's sooooo great. And it's Christian too! Dee Henderson is an amazing writer, and extremely clever with her books. I plan on borrowing the rest of the O'Malley series through the library, and maybe her other ones (age appropriate of course :D). So yes, I loved it. And I know some of you will, too. :)
On to other things...
I went to church today. Pretty nice, compared to the empitness last week (a couple families were gone, and so...It wasn't the same without those people). But yeah... :D
I decided to do a short "Not Me Monday" that my friend Twin4God has been doing. It looks kinda fun. ;) So yeah, let's see how I can do it.
Giving you guys hints, I'm basically NOT telling you the rules by NOT cheating, because I'm NOT saying that you have to say "I did NOT" do this last week.
Do you NOT get it??
1) I did NOT go to a park this week and take billions of pictures with my twin sister. =]
2) I did NOT just type a little less than 1k this week in my NaNoWriMo story (which is still in progress at an irritating 54k) <_<
3) I did NOT feel weird and confused this whole week. :P
4) I did NOT spend any time going crazy over hte holidays. (PSH. ME???? DO THAT?!?! I'm not hyper at all!) :D
And I'll list more....Next week? it's already 1:27 AM. So yeah.
Have a nice week.
Peace out,
~Bookie
So here we go:
This is one of my new favorite books! I mean, honestly, it was exactly my type. But for those of you who don't like those Romance/Mystery books, then maybe it's not for you. But if you don't mind that stuff, it's sooooo great. And it's Christian too! Dee Henderson is an amazing writer, and extremely clever with her books. I plan on borrowing the rest of the O'Malley series through the library, and maybe her other ones (age appropriate of course :D). So yes, I loved it. And I know some of you will, too. :)On to other things...
I went to church today. Pretty nice, compared to the empitness last week (a couple families were gone, and so...It wasn't the same without those people). But yeah... :D
I decided to do a short "Not Me Monday" that my friend Twin4God has been doing. It looks kinda fun. ;) So yeah, let's see how I can do it.
Giving you guys hints, I'm basically NOT telling you the rules by NOT cheating, because I'm NOT saying that you have to say "I did NOT" do this last week.Do you NOT get it??
1) I did NOT go to a park this week and take billions of pictures with my twin sister. =]
2) I did NOT just type a little less than 1k this week in my NaNoWriMo story (which is still in progress at an irritating 54k) <_<
3) I did NOT feel weird and confused this whole week. :P
4) I did NOT spend any time going crazy over hte holidays. (PSH. ME???? DO THAT?!?! I'm not hyper at all!) :D
And I'll list more....Next week? it's already 1:27 AM. So yeah.
Have a nice week.
Peace out,
~Bookie
December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
Aren't you so excited that today is....well, TODAY?!
I am! I had a blast yesterday and today both. I have 3 Christmas times all together. One's spent with my grandfather (on my mom's side) sometime during Christmas week, then another one is spent with my abuela (on my dad's side) ALWAYS on Christmas Eve till past midnight, and then the last one is spent with my grandmother (on my mom's side--my grandparents divorced, that's why) on Christmas morning.
It's SOOOOOO much fun! I used to love receiving the gifts so much, but now the more I think about it, I receive more joy and I love it more just spending it with family. :)
I love just laughing, playing games, watching TV, opening gifts, eating, talking with everyone during these times. Everyone's so much more happier than they are doing the year. It's sad, but I hope you notice it too. I mean, everyone's just more JOYFUL during Christmas time.
Maybe because of CHRIST. :D CHRISTmas would be nothing without Christ. :D (I would say, CHRISTMAS would be mas without Christ, but 'mas' in espanol --spanish, for those of you-- is more. ANd that wouldn't be very right, would it?)
I got somereally nice gifts. Some of them extremely important to me. And I'm so thankful for them. They were given out of love, thoughtfulness, and money from their pockets. :D
My most special ones is a sweatshirt (that I secretly picked out, because my abuela wanted my mom to get me my gift, and my mom let me tag along), an MP3 player, and The Door Within Trilogy. Veryyyyy thankful!
What were/was your most special/favorite gift this year?
Be back soon,
~Bookie
Aren't you so excited that today is....well, TODAY?!
I am! I had a blast yesterday and today both. I have 3 Christmas times all together. One's spent with my grandfather (on my mom's side) sometime during Christmas week, then another one is spent with my abuela (on my dad's side) ALWAYS on Christmas Eve till past midnight, and then the last one is spent with my grandmother (on my mom's side--my grandparents divorced, that's why) on Christmas morning.
It's SOOOOOO much fun! I used to love receiving the gifts so much, but now the more I think about it, I receive more joy and I love it more just spending it with family. :)
I love just laughing, playing games, watching TV, opening gifts, eating, talking with everyone during these times. Everyone's so much more happier than they are doing the year. It's sad, but I hope you notice it too. I mean, everyone's just more JOYFUL during Christmas time.
Maybe because of CHRIST. :D CHRISTmas would be nothing without Christ. :D (I would say, CHRISTMAS would be mas without Christ, but 'mas' in espanol --spanish, for those of you-- is more. ANd that wouldn't be very right, would it?)
I got somereally nice gifts. Some of them extremely important to me. And I'm so thankful for them. They were given out of love, thoughtfulness, and money from their pockets. :D
My most special ones is a sweatshirt (that I secretly picked out, because my abuela wanted my mom to get me my gift, and my mom let me tag along), an MP3 player, and The Door Within Trilogy. Veryyyyy thankful!
What were/was your most special/favorite gift this year?
Be back soon,
~Bookie
December 20, 2008
I wish I really did have lemonade at this moment...:)
I've been awarded this I think before, but I didn't really know what to do. It confused me, but now I get it. And, unfortunately, I forget who the first person was, so if you remember, you're thanked! I also thank A Girl of Many Colors/DoTella for awarding me the Lemonade Award, and A Twin for God for the honerable mention. ;)
(anyone I mention is in my blog roll, so look 'em all up, okay, guys?)
Thank you, DoT/AGoMC for giving me this award! This is a blog award called THE LEMONADE REWARD.
"THE LEMONADE AWARD: The concept behind this award is that the blog creators have shown an uncanny knack for silver linings and making the best of bad situations (i.e., lemonade from lemons)."
Rules: Name blogs that reflect this silver linings philosophy.
WOOHOO, so I'm not excited for listing only 6 blogs (and I think it's limited to that number, because I've seen two people only use 6 blogs, so....I assume I'm supposed to do that too?)!!! I mean, I'd list my whole blog roll, but I guess I can't do that, can I?
Alrighty...
(no specific order)----> CHECK THEM ALL OUT ON MY BLOG ROLL. I did not connect any links to the names.
1)Araken
2)Zoey
3)Princesses K, S, & A
4)Lydia =]
5)Ian
6)Paris
:D I didn't award any people who awarded me, or you have been as of this moment, I think. So I hope I got everyone. :)
Posting soon,
~Bookie <3
December 15, 2008
Jesus... El Gran Regalo de Amor.
I went to my friend's Youth Group in Honduras, and, yes, it was in Spanish, but my friend(s) translated, so basically I know what the whole class was about.
But I'm not going to tell you the lesson for that night (it was on conviction, by the way :D), I'm going to talk about the logo in the backround. It was on some big banner, but it said 'Jesus... El Gran Regalo de Amor'. And I don't know if I would have noticed the huge letters, if it hadn't been for my friend asking me if I could translate it. Which I could, for the most part (it was all of it, except one word) :
Jesus...The Great Gift of Love.
I like it.
:D
And I think it's so true.
Jesus IS the great gift of love.
He created us.
He saved us.
He loves us.
He's there for us.
Jesus, is the great gift of love, and we know it because--HE SHOWS IT!
How does/did he show it?
*taps nogin* Think, think, think....
WELL:
Did you not just read the 1st, 2nd, and 4th statement I made up there?! Pay attention guys, you should know!
(Number one) was-- He made us, so we actually have the chance to be
(Number two,) so we could actually feel His
(Number three,) love, because He's always
(Number four) there for us.
:D
I love doing that kinda stuff, you know, listing things like that. It's so much fun! :P lol
But haven't you heard your pastor (technically my dad, for me) tell you how great God is? Haven't you heard him say how wonderful, compassionate, powerful, loving, merciful, awesome God is?
Well, have you really thought about it?
Have you really taken those sayings seriously?
Maybe they aren't sayings...They're facts.
Have you ever taken those SERIOUSLY? I mean, REALLLLLLLY seriously.
All these days lately, I've been looking around myself, I see the world, I see the people, I see what's going on all the time, I analyze what people say, do, act, think if I can help that--and I learn. I watch people constantly. But analyzing people for me is a totally different post for later on, what I want to ask is: Have you ever realized how beautiful His creation is? I mean, the trees, the grass, the people.
I went to Honduras recently as you know, and I have so many friends over there. There were a few I hung out with the most (These two guys, and my twin sis), and they were so much fun! But I think what gave them joy was that they were Christians. I mean, Honduras is so beautiful! There was this bird that was completely yellow, and I had never seen it before.
I mean, knowing GOd loves me, gives me joy, and He knows that. Knowing that if He did love me, I'd be happy, and that gives both Him and I joy.
Jesus, El Gran Regalo de Amor.
YUP.
Believe it, because it's true.
Believe because you thought about it.
Believe it because it's fact, not just a saying from your pastor.
Your pastor's smart, but looking through the Bible and actually knowing for yourself is way better.
:)
I love the great gift of love,
~Bookie
But I'm not going to tell you the lesson for that night (it was on conviction, by the way :D), I'm going to talk about the logo in the backround. It was on some big banner, but it said 'Jesus... El Gran Regalo de Amor'. And I don't know if I would have noticed the huge letters, if it hadn't been for my friend asking me if I could translate it. Which I could, for the most part (it was all of it, except one word) :
Jesus...The Great Gift of Love.
I like it.
:D
And I think it's so true.
Jesus IS the great gift of love.
He created us.
He saved us.
He loves us.
He's there for us.
Jesus, is the great gift of love, and we know it because--HE SHOWS IT!
How does/did he show it?
*taps nogin* Think, think, think....
WELL:
Did you not just read the 1st, 2nd, and 4th statement I made up there?! Pay attention guys, you should know!
(Number one) was-- He made us, so we actually have the chance to be
(Number two,) so we could actually feel His
(Number three,) love, because He's always
(Number four) there for us.
:D
I love doing that kinda stuff, you know, listing things like that. It's so much fun! :P lol
But haven't you heard your pastor (technically my dad, for me) tell you how great God is? Haven't you heard him say how wonderful, compassionate, powerful, loving, merciful, awesome God is?
Well, have you really thought about it?
Have you really taken those sayings seriously?
Maybe they aren't sayings...They're facts.
Have you ever taken those SERIOUSLY? I mean, REALLLLLLLY seriously.
All these days lately, I've been looking around myself, I see the world, I see the people, I see what's going on all the time, I analyze what people say, do, act, think if I can help that--and I learn. I watch people constantly. But analyzing people for me is a totally different post for later on, what I want to ask is: Have you ever realized how beautiful His creation is? I mean, the trees, the grass, the people.
I went to Honduras recently as you know, and I have so many friends over there. There were a few I hung out with the most (These two guys, and my twin sis), and they were so much fun! But I think what gave them joy was that they were Christians. I mean, Honduras is so beautiful! There was this bird that was completely yellow, and I had never seen it before.
I mean, knowing GOd loves me, gives me joy, and He knows that. Knowing that if He did love me, I'd be happy, and that gives both Him and I joy.
Jesus, El Gran Regalo de Amor.
YUP.
Believe it, because it's true.
Believe because you thought about it.
Believe it because it's fact, not just a saying from your pastor.
Your pastor's smart, but looking through the Bible and actually knowing for yourself is way better.
:)
I love the great gift of love,
~Bookie
December 14, 2008
How much did you guys miss me?! --Probably not much...
Well, I'm back from Honduras!!! :D
And I had such a grea time! I'm going to post a long post, probably after this one, about what I've learned (once again) from being there.
Guess who I met, talked to, took a picture with, made a card for, and etc? JOHN MACARTHUR!!!!!!!!!!!! Please tell me you guys know of him. He's only one of the most famous teacher/pastors in history! :D lol
But yeah, I had fun there.
And it turned out my uncle, Evis Carballosa (who does not have the same last name as I do, for you nosy-rosy's), is the "John MacArthur" of Latin America, which is a smidge weird but really cool. It's just a tad strange because I'm not used to him being so famous when he visits me and my family, but he was signing books he wrote for other people and taking tons of pictures.
What was also weird was, I was about to eat a chocolate bar (a Butterfinger guys! :D), and then I decided against it because I didn't want my stomach acting up on too much junk food (that I already had), so I came up to him and offered my chocolate, and there was this photographer that had been everywhere for the past 5 days, and saw me offering it to him--so when Tio Evis decided to split it with me, he took a picture of both of us.
Talk about odd, but whatever! I had my fun then! :D lol
I had an amazing experience, and though I learned most everything the last time I was there, I still tried my hardest to find more. And that's a little strange for a teen like me--to actually try to find something hard to learn about, but I like doing that kind of stuff. :D
What I learned wasn't something really, I just liked the title of it, and so I'll probably go from there, but yeah...
Well, I guess I'll talk later about what I've been doing lately. I'm soooo entirely tired, it's so not funny.
When we made it to Honduras I realized that the time difference would have to be something to get used to for a week. It's about an hour before the time I live in. So if it's 12:00 here, it'd be 11:00 over there, and that's not as bad as it could have been, but goodness, I couldn't handle it very well. For the whole week I only had about 5 or 6 hours of sleep. And, to make it worse, I was either working for 12 hours straight (with my friends though), or I chose to stay up super late. Like, me and a bunch of my friends (plus my twin sis) decided to watch the first Lord of the Rings at 11:00 PM. :/ It was fun though! We never finished it till the next day, because we all ended up falling asleep on each other--well most of us. There were about seven boys and five girls out of all of us--it was crazy! :D And so I could be nice, because all the boys were having sleep overs, I invited these 2 little girls to have a sleep over with me and my sister in our dorm room. :) It was fun, but I ended up sleeping in another one with one of them and her older sister.
So yeah, I'll tell more later!
~Bookie
P.S. I'm glad most of you like the layout! I do too! :D
And I forget right now who asked, but I haven't personally met Twin4God, we're extremely good friends, but maybe sometime soon. :D
And I had such a grea time! I'm going to post a long post, probably after this one, about what I've learned (once again) from being there.
Guess who I met, talked to, took a picture with, made a card for, and etc? JOHN MACARTHUR!!!!!!!!!!!! Please tell me you guys know of him. He's only one of the most famous teacher/pastors in history! :D lol
But yeah, I had fun there.
And it turned out my uncle, Evis Carballosa (who does not have the same last name as I do, for you nosy-rosy's), is the "John MacArthur" of Latin America, which is a smidge weird but really cool. It's just a tad strange because I'm not used to him being so famous when he visits me and my family, but he was signing books he wrote for other people and taking tons of pictures.
What was also weird was, I was about to eat a chocolate bar (a Butterfinger guys! :D), and then I decided against it because I didn't want my stomach acting up on too much junk food (that I already had), so I came up to him and offered my chocolate, and there was this photographer that had been everywhere for the past 5 days, and saw me offering it to him--so when Tio Evis decided to split it with me, he took a picture of both of us.
Talk about odd, but whatever! I had my fun then! :D lol
I had an amazing experience, and though I learned most everything the last time I was there, I still tried my hardest to find more. And that's a little strange for a teen like me--to actually try to find something hard to learn about, but I like doing that kind of stuff. :D
What I learned wasn't something really, I just liked the title of it, and so I'll probably go from there, but yeah...
Well, I guess I'll talk later about what I've been doing lately. I'm soooo entirely tired, it's so not funny.
When we made it to Honduras I realized that the time difference would have to be something to get used to for a week. It's about an hour before the time I live in. So if it's 12:00 here, it'd be 11:00 over there, and that's not as bad as it could have been, but goodness, I couldn't handle it very well. For the whole week I only had about 5 or 6 hours of sleep. And, to make it worse, I was either working for 12 hours straight (with my friends though), or I chose to stay up super late. Like, me and a bunch of my friends (plus my twin sis) decided to watch the first Lord of the Rings at 11:00 PM. :/ It was fun though! We never finished it till the next day, because we all ended up falling asleep on each other--well most of us. There were about seven boys and five girls out of all of us--it was crazy! :D And so I could be nice, because all the boys were having sleep overs, I invited these 2 little girls to have a sleep over with me and my sister in our dorm room. :) It was fun, but I ended up sleeping in another one with one of them and her older sister.
So yeah, I'll tell more later!
~Bookie
P.S. I'm glad most of you like the layout! I do too! :D
And I forget right now who asked, but I haven't personally met Twin4God, we're extremely good friends, but maybe sometime soon. :D
December 5, 2008
New Layout!!!
Okay, so I got a new layout, but the picture is of me, and I would like to give ALL the credit for that picture to Twin4God and my sis for taking it.
You guys are the best! <3
~Bookie
You guys are the best! <3
~Bookie
Adios Amigos... ;)
Okay, so I TOTALLY forgot to post this until now.
I'm leaving for Honduras again--on Sunday.
I won't be back until the next Sunday.
So, all you smart people, figure out the math: I'll be gone for a week.
BUT WHO CARES?!
Comment on my blog anyway, okay?
I love the comments, and I hopefully will be checking my laptop, so maybe I will be on... Just saying I'll be in Honduras.
Oh! Oh! And John McArthur will be there! I'm so excited. It's for this class thing, and he's going to be teaching! :D
It's going to be awesome. lol
Ta-ta for now,
~Bookie
I'm leaving for Honduras again--on Sunday.
I won't be back until the next Sunday.
So, all you smart people, figure out the math: I'll be gone for a week.
BUT WHO CARES?!
Comment on my blog anyway, okay?
I love the comments, and I hopefully will be checking my laptop, so maybe I will be on... Just saying I'll be in Honduras.
Oh! Oh! And John McArthur will be there! I'm so excited. It's for this class thing, and he's going to be teaching! :D
It's going to be awesome. lol
Ta-ta for now,
~Bookie
December 3, 2008
Chillaxin ;)
So... I haven't posted about how I've been doing very lately. Most of you go on the forum or see me in person, and I've just been telling you from there. But I'll tell you how me and my pal, Stomach, are doing.
:)
(This link is just in case you haven't heard what's happening and you're not confuzled. :P)
Okay, so today I had an endoscopy done today.
WHAT'S THAT YOU ASK? Shucks, you don't know?! lol, I didn't either.
It's when they look inside your stomach and whatevers, taking a tube down your throat (that's a camera), of course, and takng pictures and looking for something wrong.
Guess what?
It isn't celiac, they don't think.
Neither is it Chrone's disease, they don't think, either.
WHICH THANK THE LORD, because FINE let me have celiac, but if I had Chrone's, I think I'd be very scared. (I know what it is, my abuela has it, it's not pretty).
But they saw that the inside of my stomach is inflames, and so is something else that I forget.
-Now, on to my story at the hospital, since I know some of you are practically going crazy with curiosity (yes, you know who you are). Skip this part if you feel like it, but I found the whole thing pretty funny.-
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So I had to wake up early (well for me at least--I usually wake up at 8:30-9:00 a.m.), and it was 6:30 a.m., because I had to be at our children's hospital by 7:00 a.m. Which is absolutely not fun, especially when you live in a hot place, and it just so happens to be a November morning under 70 degrees.
I was freezing, let's just say that--even with my jacket on.
My mother and I drove to the hospital and we waited for little while in this room, and then they called us over to put me in some more records in the computer (not like they didn't have enough *rolls eyes*). Then the nice lady told us to go to the endoscopy room which was SUPER far away to the room we were currently in, but whatever.
And we did go, and we entered a very large room where there were like several curtains to make into tiny "rooms", and this other lady told us to wait there.
THAT'S WHEN I SAW THE IV BAGS. <_<
Does anybody remember my post about how TERRIFIED I am of needles in general? Especially ones that are SUPPOSED to enter through my skin? I hate all kinds, but forget it, I was not a happy little girl at the time.
So then this lady comes and starts talking to us, disturbing my reading (I had brought my book Pretties*), and starts filling me in for even MORE records or whatever. She was asking all sorts of questions, then wanted to weigh me--whoopee-- and then brought me over to do that blood pressure or whatever they do. And then this guy game, and said he was some sort of Dr. -whatever-, and then asked questions and started filling even more stuff, or maybe just grabbing information.
ANYWAY, that was when I was asked whether I wanted to get drowsy by this funny tasting drink or an IV.
Which do you think I chose?
Ha, no surprises for now. I CHOSE THE LIQUID guys. ;)
AND it did taste funny and kind of bad in the end, but hey, it was worth getting that than getting a needle stuck in me.
But then I was told that an IV would be stuck in me while I asleep. But, what the hey, I won't feel it, even when I do wake up.
Then they gave me that stupid hospital gown, got changed in that, then I had to lay in the bed that was there, and they rolled me into a room, telling my mom to go away. :P
It was kind of scary, but I wasn't going to freak out or anything. I could barely even see anything, for when I had gotten there, I had seen a bunch of nurses, and then this nice lady nurse asked if I could scoot up further in the bed, and once I did, my doctor's face popped out of nowhere, and held this mask over me with funny smells.
He started talking SUPER fast, and I was kind of getting sleepy and tired, and I couldn't understand him very well. He introduced me to this nurse, Jason, and Jason waved at me. Then the doctor started talking about the funny smells, and he said something about, "Now this is going to smell like the boy's locker room!" And I started laughing, but I was almost unconcious. "Jason's been in the boy's locker room! Have you?" And by this time, I wasn't sure of what he was asking, but he answered for me. "Nooo! You haven't been in there before! Jason once fought in the boy's locker room! Didn't you, Jason?"
So I looked over at Jason, and he was nodding and grinning, looking at me while I was laughing.
Jason then started his funny story. "Yeah, yeah! I once fought in there. I was fighting..."
Then I fell asleep. :D
I woke up EXTREMELY groggy, and I don't know who was asking me, but all of a sudden someone asked for my arm, and they wouldn't take the one I was giving them, then they grabbed my other arm and stuck that pressure thing on it.
Then I fell asleep again.
Then I woke up and my mom was there, and I was being rolled back to that same place I laid on the bed before.
I was very sleepy, and someone brought me my regular clothes, and I was changed into them, and then this guy, and I think it was Jason maybe, started that pressure whatever, and started taking off all of these stickers that were stuck onto me before I fell asleep. And they were those ones that they stick on your head with wires--or on your heart--to monitor my heart, and then he took off this thing that was attached to my finger, to monitor my pulse.
THEN came the part where he took off my IV, and I really couldn't have cared less. I was deirious (sp?), and I just felt a slight pinch. Then some other dude brought a wheelchair, and I had no idea--until I tried getting up to walk.
I couldn't stand.
Or at least, I barely could stand. For I was so sleepy, and so out of it, that I couldn't lift myself really.
So I got in the wheelchair, he wheeled me down, my mom got the car, and he wasn't a very sociable person. I mean, for someone like me, who cares if I'm sleepy?!
TALK TO ME. I want to :P
But no, he was too busy checking out his cellphone.
So it was up to me, eh? FINE.
So I told him I liekd his cellphone--which was okay, I guess. I mean, it was nice, but I was so sleepy, all I noticed was that it was flat and silver. :D
He barely answered--"Oh yeah.. I like that it's flat--OH, your mom's here."
Psh. Whatever. I didn't want to talk to you anyway.
I was taken to my car, I got home, could barely walk still, slept for hours.
Then I woke up.
AND I'M ALIVE! :D
I'm as good as knew, and I have pictures of the inside of my stomach and throat and YEAH.
So I'm happy, and I'm cool, and I didn't have any school today (even if I take breaks as a homeschooler). :)
So I thank you all for the prayers. I know some of you have been asking to be kept up to date, and I really appreciate that you care so much. :) (I honestly do!!)
I'm going to go back to the hospital/doctor in two weeks to see how I'm doing, and whether I still need to take some of the medication I'm supposed to take everyday.
Thanks for your prayers, I still need them, but I'm so happy it hasn't been anything more.
Thankful,
~Bookie
:)
(This link is just in case you haven't heard what's happening and you're not confuzled. :P)
Okay, so today I had an endoscopy done today.
WHAT'S THAT YOU ASK? Shucks, you don't know?! lol, I didn't either.
It's when they look inside your stomach and whatevers, taking a tube down your throat (that's a camera), of course, and takng pictures and looking for something wrong.
Guess what?
It isn't celiac, they don't think.
Neither is it Chrone's disease, they don't think, either.
WHICH THANK THE LORD, because FINE let me have celiac, but if I had Chrone's, I think I'd be very scared. (I know what it is, my abuela has it, it's not pretty).
But they saw that the inside of my stomach is inflames, and so is something else that I forget.
-Now, on to my story at the hospital, since I know some of you are practically going crazy with curiosity (yes, you know who you are). Skip this part if you feel like it, but I found the whole thing pretty funny.-
****
So I had to wake up early (well for me at least--I usually wake up at 8:30-9:00 a.m.), and it was 6:30 a.m., because I had to be at our children's hospital by 7:00 a.m. Which is absolutely not fun, especially when you live in a hot place, and it just so happens to be a November morning under 70 degrees.
I was freezing, let's just say that--even with my jacket on.
My mother and I drove to the hospital and we waited for little while in this room, and then they called us over to put me in some more records in the computer (not like they didn't have enough *rolls eyes*). Then the nice lady told us to go to the endoscopy room which was SUPER far away to the room we were currently in, but whatever.
And we did go, and we entered a very large room where there were like several curtains to make into tiny "rooms", and this other lady told us to wait there.
THAT'S WHEN I SAW THE IV BAGS. <_<
Does anybody remember my post about how TERRIFIED I am of needles in general? Especially ones that are SUPPOSED to enter through my skin? I hate all kinds, but forget it, I was not a happy little girl at the time.
So then this lady comes and starts talking to us, disturbing my reading (I had brought my book Pretties*), and starts filling me in for even MORE records or whatever. She was asking all sorts of questions, then wanted to weigh me--whoopee-- and then brought me over to do that blood pressure or whatever they do. And then this guy game, and said he was some sort of Dr. -whatever-, and then asked questions and started filling even more stuff, or maybe just grabbing information.
ANYWAY, that was when I was asked whether I wanted to get drowsy by this funny tasting drink or an IV.
Which do you think I chose?
Ha, no surprises for now. I CHOSE THE LIQUID guys. ;)
AND it did taste funny and kind of bad in the end, but hey, it was worth getting that than getting a needle stuck in me.
But then I was told that an IV would be stuck in me while I asleep. But, what the hey, I won't feel it, even when I do wake up.
Then they gave me that stupid hospital gown, got changed in that, then I had to lay in the bed that was there, and they rolled me into a room, telling my mom to go away. :P
It was kind of scary, but I wasn't going to freak out or anything. I could barely even see anything, for when I had gotten there, I had seen a bunch of nurses, and then this nice lady nurse asked if I could scoot up further in the bed, and once I did, my doctor's face popped out of nowhere, and held this mask over me with funny smells.
He started talking SUPER fast, and I was kind of getting sleepy and tired, and I couldn't understand him very well. He introduced me to this nurse, Jason, and Jason waved at me. Then the doctor started talking about the funny smells, and he said something about, "Now this is going to smell like the boy's locker room!" And I started laughing, but I was almost unconcious. "Jason's been in the boy's locker room! Have you?" And by this time, I wasn't sure of what he was asking, but he answered for me. "Nooo! You haven't been in there before! Jason once fought in the boy's locker room! Didn't you, Jason?"
So I looked over at Jason, and he was nodding and grinning, looking at me while I was laughing.
Jason then started his funny story. "Yeah, yeah! I once fought in there. I was fighting..."
Then I fell asleep. :D
I woke up EXTREMELY groggy, and I don't know who was asking me, but all of a sudden someone asked for my arm, and they wouldn't take the one I was giving them, then they grabbed my other arm and stuck that pressure thing on it.
Then I fell asleep again.
Then I woke up and my mom was there, and I was being rolled back to that same place I laid on the bed before.
I was very sleepy, and someone brought me my regular clothes, and I was changed into them, and then this guy, and I think it was Jason maybe, started that pressure whatever, and started taking off all of these stickers that were stuck onto me before I fell asleep. And they were those ones that they stick on your head with wires--or on your heart--to monitor my heart, and then he took off this thing that was attached to my finger, to monitor my pulse.
THEN came the part where he took off my IV, and I really couldn't have cared less. I was deirious (sp?), and I just felt a slight pinch. Then some other dude brought a wheelchair, and I had no idea--until I tried getting up to walk.
I couldn't stand.
Or at least, I barely could stand. For I was so sleepy, and so out of it, that I couldn't lift myself really.
So I got in the wheelchair, he wheeled me down, my mom got the car, and he wasn't a very sociable person. I mean, for someone like me, who cares if I'm sleepy?!
TALK TO ME. I want to :P
But no, he was too busy checking out his cellphone.
So it was up to me, eh? FINE.
So I told him I liekd his cellphone--which was okay, I guess. I mean, it was nice, but I was so sleepy, all I noticed was that it was flat and silver. :D
He barely answered--"Oh yeah.. I like that it's flat--OH, your mom's here."
Psh. Whatever. I didn't want to talk to you anyway.
I was taken to my car, I got home, could barely walk still, slept for hours.
Then I woke up.
AND I'M ALIVE! :D
I'm as good as knew, and I have pictures of the inside of my stomach and throat and YEAH.
So I'm happy, and I'm cool, and I didn't have any school today (even if I take breaks as a homeschooler). :)
So I thank you all for the prayers. I know some of you have been asking to be kept up to date, and I really appreciate that you care so much. :) (I honestly do!!)
I'm going to go back to the hospital/doctor in two weeks to see how I'm doing, and whether I still need to take some of the medication I'm supposed to take everyday.
Thanks for your prayers, I still need them, but I'm so happy it hasn't been anything more.
Thankful,
~Bookie
November 28, 2008
11:30 P.M--I'm still thankful, 12:00 A.M--Guess what? I'm still thankful!
Well, I would've postedyesterday, but it was Thanksgiving. Typing up some of these posts turn out to be long and tedious and sometimes they turn out long....and yeah. =D lOl, I'm sure you guys are stunned, just like me, when you see posts longer than your hand--'cause I sure am. I'm constantly typing what I want to say, and then it turns out I'm either rambling, didn't get my point across, or I did, but it's SUPER long, and maybe needs editing?
But I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for the opportunity of sharing my thoughts and belief(s) with other people. I'm thankful that I get to have fun with people that have become such great friends--just through bloggin. I may not know you guys in person, but every comment on my blog, I'm really thankful for. I feel like the more you post your thoughts and the more you talk to me, I am getting to know you, and we are becoming friends. And I'm extremely thanful for that. :)
Did you notice how many thankful's I put?
*Just wondering*
You know, yesterday was Thanksgiving (well, duh, you guys know that!), and the day before we had this pre-Thanksgiving Day with my church.
That was a lot of fun!
But that's not what I'm really going to talk about.
The day before yesterday, Wednesday, at our gathering, we were all talking about what we were thankful for. Well, at last some who were wanting to talk about what they were thankful for.
I felt that my thoughts were not needed, as I was a kid, and I would have said something if it was Double-Edge, my youth group, but I decided to give all the adults a try. ;)
ANYWAY, this young lady, Yali (Yaw-lee), who's in her twenties I think, started to speak up. SHe started to say how thankful she was for prayer. And for her aunt actually having terminal cancer.
Yes. Her aunt's going to die and she was thankful for the disease?!
Her aunt wasn't a Christian for a very long time, and Yali wasn't thankful for the pain and suffering her aunt was going through. NO, she was thankfu that through all of this, her aunt became a Christian! Saved, and when asked again if she believed, she said it again. She was a Christian. They asked twice, because when they had witnessed to her, she was going through lots of stuff, and they wanted to know if she meant it. BUT SHE DID. :D Isn't that great?!
Yali had her boyfriend behind her. And though her parents are usually at these meetings, they were with her aunt, and I know they would have been proud.
See, Yali's boyfriend isn't a Christian, and Yali was thanking God for so many things that day, that he actually listened. And that's really awesome.
We hope that Yali will be able to help him become saved too.
NEXT, Yali said she was thankful for prayer. She was telling all of us that usually everyone uses prayer as a last resort, or tells someone in the end that they'll pray for that person.
And you know what?
I think she's right.
Have you ever noticed that when someone says that he or she will pray for you, isn't it at the end of their sentence?
Jeez, when she said that I was like, "WHOA!" She was so right. That everyone tries even their own best, by themselves, hoping that God would give them strength, when usually they just want to be able to tell someone "I did it!"
Does God want that?
Nope.
Guys, it's more like, "God did through me!", "With God's help, I can do it!", etc.
Now that I've got that point across, I'm going onto a new subject. (Wow, I already went into three, and TRUST ME, I had the hardest time resisting to actually just break this post into three of them. I could talk about them forever.
But no, it's the day after Thanksgiving. I think i'll give you guys a break.
~~~ --Topic 3 (my title, too)
Have you ever noticed that on Thanksgiving, EVERYONE is aways like "I'm so thankful for..." But on other days, everyone's mostly saying, "Oh I wish I had that!" or "Yeah, I love _____."
Isn't it sad that no one really says "I'm thankful" EVERY DAY? It shouldn't be just one day out of the year! It should be 365 days out of each year!
It's so disappointing to know lots of people who just take advantage of everything they have.
They aren't fully realizing how precious their life is.
I mean, even kids or adults or teens just say "I'm thankful" on Thanksgiving Day to everyone really quickly, just to get it over with so they can eat or relax.
Um, no.
I don't think so.
I'm sure God isn't very happy with you, but does that matter in your heart?
I sure hope so!
I'm thankful for Jesus.
I'm thankful for salvation.
I'm thankful for my family.
I'm thankful for my friends.
I'm thankful for food I get to eat.
I'm thankful for life.
Yeah, no one really realizes that GOd made each and every one of us.
We don't even need to be here.
God could snap his fingers and we're gone.
How would you like that?
Be thankful for life, and be thankful for EVERY SINGLE THING OUT THERE. Because you actually are a person. You're real, you have fingers and toes, eyes and ears, a nose, a mouth. Yeah, you're for real.
Thankful all the time,
~Bookie
But I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for the opportunity of sharing my thoughts and belief(s) with other people. I'm thankful that I get to have fun with people that have become such great friends--just through bloggin. I may not know you guys in person, but every comment on my blog, I'm really thankful for. I feel like the more you post your thoughts and the more you talk to me, I am getting to know you, and we are becoming friends. And I'm extremely thanful for that. :)
Did you notice how many thankful's I put?
*Just wondering*
You know, yesterday was Thanksgiving (well, duh, you guys know that!), and the day before we had this pre-Thanksgiving Day with my church.
That was a lot of fun!
But that's not what I'm really going to talk about.
The day before yesterday, Wednesday, at our gathering, we were all talking about what we were thankful for. Well, at last some who were wanting to talk about what they were thankful for.
I felt that my thoughts were not needed, as I was a kid, and I would have said something if it was Double-Edge, my youth group, but I decided to give all the adults a try. ;)
ANYWAY, this young lady, Yali (Yaw-lee), who's in her twenties I think, started to speak up. SHe started to say how thankful she was for prayer. And for her aunt actually having terminal cancer.
Yes. Her aunt's going to die and she was thankful for the disease?!
Her aunt wasn't a Christian for a very long time, and Yali wasn't thankful for the pain and suffering her aunt was going through. NO, she was thankfu that through all of this, her aunt became a Christian! Saved, and when asked again if she believed, she said it again. She was a Christian. They asked twice, because when they had witnessed to her, she was going through lots of stuff, and they wanted to know if she meant it. BUT SHE DID. :D Isn't that great?!
Yali had her boyfriend behind her. And though her parents are usually at these meetings, they were with her aunt, and I know they would have been proud.
See, Yali's boyfriend isn't a Christian, and Yali was thanking God for so many things that day, that he actually listened. And that's really awesome.
We hope that Yali will be able to help him become saved too.
NEXT, Yali said she was thankful for prayer. She was telling all of us that usually everyone uses prayer as a last resort, or tells someone in the end that they'll pray for that person.
And you know what?
I think she's right.
Have you ever noticed that when someone says that he or she will pray for you, isn't it at the end of their sentence?
Jeez, when she said that I was like, "WHOA!" She was so right. That everyone tries even their own best, by themselves, hoping that God would give them strength, when usually they just want to be able to tell someone "I did it!"
Does God want that?
Nope.
Guys, it's more like, "God did through me!", "With God's help, I can do it!", etc.
Now that I've got that point across, I'm going onto a new subject. (Wow, I already went into three, and TRUST ME, I had the hardest time resisting to actually just break this post into three of them. I could talk about them forever.
But no, it's the day after Thanksgiving. I think i'll give you guys a break.
~~~ --Topic 3 (my title, too)
Have you ever noticed that on Thanksgiving, EVERYONE is aways like "I'm so thankful for..." But on other days, everyone's mostly saying, "Oh I wish I had that!" or "Yeah, I love _____."
Isn't it sad that no one really says "I'm thankful" EVERY DAY? It shouldn't be just one day out of the year! It should be 365 days out of each year!
It's so disappointing to know lots of people who just take advantage of everything they have.
They aren't fully realizing how precious their life is.
I mean, even kids or adults or teens just say "I'm thankful" on Thanksgiving Day to everyone really quickly, just to get it over with so they can eat or relax.
Um, no.
I don't think so.
I'm sure God isn't very happy with you, but does that matter in your heart?
I sure hope so!
I'm thankful for Jesus.
I'm thankful for salvation.
I'm thankful for my family.
I'm thankful for my friends.
I'm thankful for food I get to eat.
I'm thankful for life.
Yeah, no one really realizes that GOd made each and every one of us.
We don't even need to be here.
God could snap his fingers and we're gone.
How would you like that?
Be thankful for life, and be thankful for EVERY SINGLE THING OUT THERE. Because you actually are a person. You're real, you have fingers and toes, eyes and ears, a nose, a mouth. Yeah, you're for real.
Thankful all the time,
~Bookie
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